The Two People and the Room

Lust was in the room waiting. He could feel that someone was trying to get rid of him but he did not want to leave. He had been around for a while and thought it was rude for this person to attempt to throw him out when he had been entertaining Lust for so long. "He has kept me around quite a while now and suddenly thinks he can just get rid of me?" He thought to himself. Lust was enjoying his time with these people and did not want to go, even though he was feeling a little lonely. He decided to invite his friend Temptation to the room because he was always fun. A little hot and cold though, kind of on and off. But tonight he knew Temptation would be full blown party mode. He was not sure why, he could just feel it. Temptation was hardly one to come to a party alone though..only on his off days. So Temptation brought along Desire. She was beautiful. Long, dark hair and shining eyes. She always had a spark and was always ready for fun. Lust did not feel like the person was trying to get rid of him anymore. Now he felt welcomed. Lust, Temptation and Desire were dancing between the two people in the room. They were great dancers and knew how to get others involved in the dances. Desire spun around and around and her hair caressed both people. It was while she was dancing that she remembered her best friend was going to be at the party also and must be close now. Passion and Desire had been friends forever. They were almost inseparable, showing up together everywhere. Passion entered the room just as Desire was thinking of her. Passion and Temptation began to dance. Passion, Desire, Temptation and Lust saw each other often but it was always exciting being around each other. They danced into the night.

The friends stayed the night but began to realize who was going to show up soon. They did not like them. Guilt knocked on the door first. He walked in with authority, and trust me, he was a big guy and his presence was very noticeable. He always had a stern face and a straight back and walked like he had business to take care of...and he usually did. Passion and Desire left together to go find another party; that was their job and it was never finished. Temptation saw that Guilt wanted alone time with the people and so he ran out the door. Lust stayed a while just to see what happened. Guilt looked the people in the eyes. It was at that moment that Shame came creeping in the room. He is a real creeper that Shame. He went and sat in bewteen the two people. Guilt and Shame knew each other very well but really were not very fun. They called their friend Regret to come into the room to meet these people, but Regret said he had met them many times before. It could hardly be called a party with these three around but they always stayed longer than the first party guests. And they really always wore out their welcome. They just sat with the people. Staring into their eyes. Eating away at their souls.

After a while they started to get uncomfortable. Guilt really wanted to stick around because he loved making the people feel terrible (which explains his friendship with Regret). He searched the room for the source of this strange feeling. He found her stashed under a pile of clothes. He wanted to make her stay there but even when people try to keep her away she knows how to get back through. It was Love. Stuffed under dirty clothes, hidden and dirty. But she got up and brushed herself off. She really was lovely. Even bruised like she was, there was something soft and refreshing about her. Maybe it was the twinkle in her eyes or the way her mouth was always curved at the corners. Or even the way she walked, like she was ready to leap and run to a person to hug and comfort them at any moment. She saw Shame sitting there with a tight hold on both people and told him gently that it was time to leave. He quickly creeped right out the window, hoping to find where Passion had gone to next. Love spoke to Guilt in a sweet voice and said, "You do not belong here. Please leave." Guilt was not ready to go yet and demanded a good reason. "Just because you are here, Love, does not mean I have to go." Very true. Sometimes Guilt and Love stayed in the same room for a very long time, no matter how uncomfortable they were with each other. Love knew that someone else was there. He was sometimes very hard to find, but he was there. She called his name and knew that the people had a difficult time with him so they had probably pushed him away somewhere. It was not like they didn't like him. They really enjoyed the feelings he brought. He was just very difficult and hard to deal with and accept. But there he was, standing in the doorway waiting to be invited in by the people. They were so tired of Guilt by then that they gladly called him over. It was Forgiveness and he wasted no time in kicking Guilt out of the room.Repentance was with Forgiveness but she was so much kinder than Regret. She was also a close friend of Love's. As Repentance, Forgiveness and Love gathered around the two people, they decided to leave the room and not enter again. They realized now what a bad idea it had been to go in there when Lust had begged them. They would not listen to Lust again. They decided to hold Love's hands as she walked them through to the other side of the house, where they had been meaning to go the whole time. Purity had been left behind but Forgiveness got her all caught up with the crew, and together they made it to the big day. The day Lust had convinced them was not important. But they finally made it.

And Marriage happily welcomed them into his room.

Just Something I Write to ALL my friends.........

You make my tummy rumble

No that isn't what I mean

I mean butterflies

No...more intense...draggonflies



I just mean I'm empty when you aren't here

No...that's always

I'm not always empty

Or..Am I?



Wonder what it would feel like to have you around

I'll just wonder for now

Soon we'll be found

You know what that's from?



I know you do

It's something we quote to each other

Everything she sings

Made for each other

Sweetz I miss you

Baby I gotta see you

I hate love

And loving

And caring

But here I am

Wishing I could be sharing

My life

With you

Is there more I can say

Yes plenty

But then you'll think you're special

...Psh I treat everyone this way!

The Chase

It's a dark room
With the door closed
Open the door
Run
Faster
There is no time to waste

If you stop...................

Don't think about it
RUN
Let the tears fall
There is no time to dry them
They don't matter
Everyone knew of your sadness anyway

Out of breath already?
Out of time
Out of space
Between
Better get up
NO don't sit
No time to rest

You could not beat it
And now the door is beginning to shut
And you even made it out of the room
If only for a while
For a breath of fresh air
But you couldn't make it

It's a dark room
With the door closed.

Dear Mom...

You
Want me to be
You
I understand your desire
For me to desire
God
But you condemn
Me
You
Judge
Me
With your words and actions
Tell me I can only be loved
If I act like
You
It hurts
When you cannot accept me
The way I am
I am this way
But
You would not understand
If I told you about my struggles
You
Would only condemn
How can I please you?
Only if I desire God
Only if
Everyone
Around me can see that
I desire God
When I mess up
You are ashamed
Because
Everyone
Cannot see that I desire God
I wish I could tell you
What I am going through
What I have gone through
What I have done
And I want to tell you
That what Satan is whispering in my ear
Is what you tell me every chance
You get
I have to be perfect
I have to
THINK
Only the right things
SAY
Only the right things
DO
Only the right things
I am not allowed to
Struggle
HURT
FAIL
You want me to prove
That I love God
Is that not condemning?
Judgement?
I
Do love God
But what if
I didn't?
You would not love me
The same
You would forever be
Shoving
Words down my throat
Even when I tell you
I desire to follow God
You
Shove words
Down my throat
What can I do to
Show you
Prove to you
The desires of my heart?
Should I really have to?
Is that required of me?
"Please your mother."
"Prove to your mother
You love me."
I never read that
In the Bible
Jesus is telling me
There is no condemnation
For those
Who are in
Christ.
I
Lost my way
For a while
And I am trying
Striving
To get back
But you cannot know
Because you would not
Understand.
I
hurt
so
much
But just because
I failed
And you did not
You would not
Understand
My struggles
Sure
You love me
If I have to prove
My love for God
For you
Could you not prove
Your
UNCONDITIONAL LOVE
For me?