Ouch

I never really thought it would come to this
I have been forgotten
Thrown aside
Given up on
Left out
And this whole time I remembered you.
To me our friendship was deeper, we grew up together
I've known you forever
Always
Friends
But see I know that relationships ruin everything
As soon as she came along I was gone
Out of your eyes
Because she didn't like us being
Friends.
Did she not think about the fact that I've ALWAYS known you?
Forever
Friends.
I have lost so many friendships because of those terrible words...
Dating, Commitment, Marriage.
One, two, three, there I go
Pushed away
One: we were even married as kids, best friends when we were little
We did it all together, even eating the dog food
Cause the cat food was too salty.
You played superman and you saved me
But now you are getting married
and it slipped your mind to invite me...I see.
Friends.
Two: We got closer and closer as we got older
We were even in the same clique at camp
Until she came along, the little tramp
And decided what we had was unacceptable...
Friends
And you agreed and now we don't speak.
And you let her get away with so much
Against me
But because of that word
Relationship
You were of course supporting her
And I was not only out money...I was out a friend.
Three: You were my brother. You meant more to me than I can explain in words.
Bear rug, alphabet pillow, these are memories that never get old
I weep at the thought of losing you
I weep at the thought of what you've done, too
I weep because you have hurt so many
I weep because you don't care any
And I loved you so much but that doesn't matter
My own brother listened to my heart shatter
You helped cause it you know, but that isn't the point,
The point is you've forgotten me now
Friends no longer
No more
Never again
You have a new life
And put me aside
Because growing up together
Nineteen years together
Really is not a big deal at all.

Thanks for the nineteen years.
I will remember them enough for us all.
Because I know you have more important things to take care of now
More important people
New lives
But I will think of you often
Because our friendship was dear to me

But I get it...
Growing up together was no big deal
Nineteen years but I shouldn't feel
Hurt.





























































*You may think by this that I have some pent up bitterness issues. You may be right lol. But enjoy it anyways I'm just letting it out on paper/blog. haha And one, two and three will probably never read this.*