The traitor beats inside

She felt the pain in her heart perceptibly
Like everytime she breathed
Something new punctured the precious organ
Sometimes tiny little needles
Sometimes jagged daggers
She never knew how awful it would hurt next
And sometimes, the pain was so unbearable
That she was simply numb.
Those were the worst times.

So much had caused this pain
So many people
Can you even call them people?
The ones who did this to her?
It is unethical to call them human beings
When there is nothing humane about them

Can you not see she is aching
Because of what you did?
Or the lack of your actions is a better description.
She cared for you
Wanted to take care of you
Wanted to love you
Possibly.
More than any of that...

She wanted you to care
About her
For her

She wanted you to show the smallest amount of respect
She wants to believe she gave so much
Or you took so much
But the truth is,
She knew
From the beginning she knew this would happen
So she can't blame you

Once more she only has herself to blame
It never ends.

That is what is ironic about this situation
This agony can be traced in a full circle
The very heart that falls apart so easily
The same heart that hurts so badly
Is the source.
Is the reason.
She knows the truth.

You showed no real concern for her
You threw her into misery
You admitted you did not care
You told her you overlooked her
But the fact of the matter is
She did it to herself

Her heart betrayed her
Time and time again
The traitor beats inside her
Infecting the blood that rushes through her body
Restricting the breath that always tries to escape
But freely pouring out the tears
That wash away the fake smile on her weary face

She suffers but she knows
She only has herself to blame.